please come in, make yourself comfortable
but don't forget I made all that
and if it wasn't for me
you could not see any of that
which wing should we start with
the right for my family
and the left for the man
but don't be judging too fast
I think I deserve all that
I worked too hard and got
criticized
they're just jealous
for who I know
and how much I have
but let's not get too lost
because this mansion
is too big for closed minds
and we haven't gotten to the rooms
or the kitchen or the underground
you should see what's going on
in those parts
but here is the couch where I sit to drink it all up
where I can just look at the sky and don't think
about how empty is the mansion
I have come to realize
it's lonely at the top
What a morning!
What a morning
Im having a heartbreak
I pour my emotions in my coffee
sour just like my heart
Drink them up like a grown up
no tears heartless
pretending hard to be careless
trying to keep busy
I make a long to do note
things been waiting
on my procrastination list
it reads sleep til back pain
I don't dream
pitch black unconscious
dream mechanism is broken
barely inspired
certainly tired
overthinking the past few years
the years to come
her
can't live in the moment
too busy regurgitating
regrets, broken promises, distractions
goals they said
she passed by
I was running after bread
the only one who's never left me on read
I did
she moved on fast
don't want to regret
but I got to the last slurp
I lift my cup like a grown up
slurp
dark and sour like my heart
What a morning!
reborn
Get away and take nobody
Just me and myself
Throw away the phone
And sort out my friends
Connect with god
And cleanse my soul
Forget security
And live in the moment
Think less and do more
Do less then just rest
Ahi and fries
Lemon soy and ginger
Sunset then a storm
A good temperature
Lots of rain
An open shirt and a silver chain
Hair in the wind
Curls intertwined
Oil and hot stone
Bath salt and sun
A girl on a scooter
Scented candles
Beach sandals
Latte at a hidden cafe
Coffee early in the morning
Coffe late in the evening
Don't talk to anyone
Just be there
Smile and say nothing
Old books
Old songs
Same looks
Reborn
pinky promise
promise me we won't be like those guys in LA
stuck in a big city traffic in a fast car going nowhere
promise me we will try different games
change the rules now and then so we won't be boring
re assure me when you catch me slacking
have no doubts though it's just in my nature
I want to see you get old don't change a thing to your face
every line tells our story, let it all be real in glory
we will live, we will die
we will never be apart
pinky promise
in secret and in the light
promise me we won't take all the gold we can find
get rich for yourself and eat all you can with style
promise me you will always turn your face to the light
remember the greatest illusion will also fade in time
teach me I will listen don't judge and stay distant
you make mistakes and so do I, that's why I chose to be by your side
I want to see you make them all so I can come and fix you
if you are my soul then know no one else will be there to do it for you
we will live, we will die
we will never be apart
pinky promise
in secret and in the light
sickness in the heart, sickness in the heart
sifting through your emotions
I find the darkness
whenever a light reaches
it ends there
as if it does not exist
your eyes don't see
the disease lies elsewhere
sickness in the heart, sickness in the heart
staring at how you are looking
you gave yourself away
no longer a secret
envious, jealous, wrongly disdainful
evil evil
laser eyes, tearing my world apart
sickness in the heart, sickness in the heart
I can only be myself
you can't take that away
if you and a whole army
come to my door banging
god gave it to me
god only takes it away
you
insignificant to me
watch me with you laser eyes
until you get tired
watch me with you laser eyes
be great as much as I can be
Thinking
Overthinking, mixing poisons
Hearing voices, making choices
Still the same rain, still the same pain
Still wandering, still feels the same
Killer noises, blaming curses
Shaking bases, holding grudges
Swinging between two, singing in vain
Eating my pain, cold and alone
This road is so steep and I'm in, too deep
Ahead is still long, turning back is long gone
No Jump From the Brighton Pier
I think about death. Then I think about hell
I think about living then I think about how lonely I am
The water is blue and I am too
The sun is warm like others around
I take a walk on the beach where there is no sand
I see a dog playing and I feel jealous
I see the sun go down and I don't feel anything
Nice is the view that's what others see
I look at others cuz I feel lonely
Fat and Sugar
You like me bland, tasteless like your coffee
You put three or four sugar in your cup
You don't want to taste the reality
You want me the same way sweet and up beat
But I come hot, raw and quiet and you don't like it this way
And even if my taste changes for a moment
The time we sit down and sip a drink
I'd go back to me, as soon as I can be
And you don't like it, you think I'm too bold and cold
I think you should cut on fat and sugar
Highest Note of a Dull Day
A door half open
You can stare but you can't
Get in
It's your wedding
Rain pouring
Your bride is late
A scented candle
But you lost your smell
Having a car
But you're always home
Travel plans
But nowhere to go
Having friends
But you're so alone
A beating heart
But I feel nothing
Air in the lungs
Oh what a waste
You could smile
But it will be fake
Your lips on mine
I can't taste
All the things that are missing
And if you had them
Nothing would change
Like the highest note
On a dull
Day
I hardly care
Why would I
I left everything to burn
Its eating away
Crawling slowly
getting to me
And I am waiting...
Eagerly
Come meet me
At my highest
At my lowest
I am nothing
Ashes in a burning forest
Anyways
I am calling it a day
Not Meant To Be
I had a long half day
I sung and wrote about love
That I don't have
But I thought it's not for me
And it bothered me
when it got too late
I went out for coffee
But they don't serve it anymore
Just beer and some more expensive drinks
It bothered me
But I thought it wasn't meant to be
Then I went to the beach
I wanted to ride a bike
I was gonna pay when I realized
That I forgot my wallet at home
I thought it wasn't meant to be
It didn't bother me
Later At Night
Later at night
right before dawn
it's always dead outside
I wish I could say the same
of my mind
it's still awake rambling around
I take a walk in the dead streets
a summer rain falling
the neon on the wet street
blending like a painting
Later at night
right before sunrise
such a strange time
wide awake but
dead inside
Free men
A man is a man girl
Even if he promises the world
No one knows what's in the heart
Until he goes through the night
And by the time he's on the other side
He's half the man you saw at the start
A man is a man girl
Even if he promises the world
No man is strong
When he hears the devils song
Drown him in a glass
Drugs, sex and fake friends
You can't keep me chained
I have somewhere to be
The night is dark and cold
Exactly where I need to be
Free
Then I just Sit
And then I just sit
and then I just stare
at the white pages, neverending
I have to fill them all, I have to stain them all
should I spare the world, from my pain?
but I know someone out there is feeling the same
then I feel the bravery that shouldn't be mine
and start to fight my enemies line by line
just write them down
both unconscious
until the fight starts to make sense
then I feel hunger, drop the pen
wishing that someone could drop the coin
but then I turn my head and say
I am not into this for a coin
I was just dragged down
I had no choice
Entertain each other til death do us apart
Let's entertain each other
til death do us apart
Follow me, I will follow you
Show me things, I will love you
Make me sad, make me blue
Make me laugh,
til the blue is through
A day follows another
we entertain each other
dreams, we make them together
Kids, one after another
The skin will wrinkle,
the battery will die
The hair turns grey,
tears dry, we don't cry
We have to move on,
when the feeling is gone
When you feel you're done,
leaving the TV on
then you die alone
then feelings are gone
cold and blue
too gray to prey
sitting alone with nothing left to say
we've seen the end and
we just want to
get through a day
eating alone churning an old bone
and if you could take a loan
you'd turn right back
just to make it home
Don't look down on me
I come late but I always make it
I sit here, preferably away from everybody
But then they come rushing
And I don't turn my head
Big guys with nice cars
Small guys with big cars
I don't look up, I don't turn my head
Old stuck ups in their fancy suits
Young rich bored to death
Married with noisy kids
Young couples and a lot of love
Things I would normally want
But then I just don't
Then comes a nice girl
In her early twenties
She walks straight past me
She looks away while her big breasts are looking down on me
I am a proud man I don’t let anyone look down on me
I look up and admire silently
My Problem
Dealing with my problems
Sip after another
Slowly drinking it bitter
But I can't complain
Unless the drink is sweet
I tend to let it simmer
Til the marrow murk's the gravy
Nobody wants to take a sip of that
Me neither but that's my problem
They All Left
They all left
Except the moon
The girls left and I don't miss them
They were loud
The old couple on the other side left too
They were silent
A large crowd of young men sitting in a circle
Will leave soon
I will certainly like them gone
My drink and my food will go down
The fire will die and the cold will settle
The book is thick but I will get to the end
Traffic got replaced by the summer cricket hiss
And there is nothing else
And I like it this way
They're all gone now
Just me and the moon
Shipwreck
mundane keeps you sane
why did I venture alone this far?
routine kept me tame
why didn't I stay in the tar?
No one asked for another hero
the world will keep on burning anyhow
a shout in a crowd will lose it's tone
and good and bad will play in the same park
and every feeling will lose it's soul
like every word in every poem
Memories like melody will fade away
like every note and every song
A ship is safe at harbor
but ships are made to sail
A ship is safe at harbor
But no ship was made
to stay
home